Mommy's Life

12 Weeks

2008-10-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

12 weeks:

The most dramatic development this week: reflexes. Your baby's fingers will soon begin to open and close, his toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won't be able to feel it. His intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into his abdominal cavity about now, and his kidneys will begin excreting urine into his bladder.Meanwhile, nerve cells are multiplying rapidly, and in your baby's brain, synapses are forming furiously. His face looks unquestionably human: His eyes have moved from the sides to the front of his head, and his ears are right where they should be. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over 2 inches long (about the size of a lime) and weighs half an ounce.

Back to reality

2008-10-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

Well we got back from out honeymoon in Vegas last night. It was so fun!! so was the wedding! so many people showed up and we had a blast dancing. It was nice to see all the people I love. I am so glad its over. Luckily I wasn't sick at all that day, but I was EXTREMELY tired. That's slowly fading. I will be 12 weeks tomorrow, roughly three months. How exciting this all is! Jake had to go back up to Idaho for a month but will be home on the weekends. We might have to move up there if they offer him a position, then wait until something opens back up down here, but we'll see. As for me I need to find a part time job just to keep me entertained, I can't sit home all day its lonely. I can't say its been total hell though. I get up take walks, don't worry about being late anywhere. That's why i am looking for part time. Also I need to figure out my insurance issues ASAP. My second Dr. Appointment is this friday, I am excited. Hopefully they can hear the baby's heartbeat this time. Last time it was a little too early. Still rooting for a boy lol. Well I'd better get my butt in gear and start the job hunting!!!

Wow....

2008-09-30T13:12:00.000-07:00

Hmm...so i was extremely sick last week with a cold, but i noticed food wasn't looking/smelling/tasting the same to me. I couldn't remember my last pd. so I thought i'd take a pregnancy test...now I have taken these things before and they ALWAYS come back negative, i just get nervous and pysch myself out. Anyways this time it wasn't negative, it was positve. My first thought was "this isn't real" my second thought was "this isn't real" LOL jk i took another one the next morning to make sure and sure enough it was positive. I ended up getting even more sicker, so i went to the Dr. Friday and found out I had bronchitis (yay...not) so while i was there i had them take a blood pregnancy test..I called today and they confirmed that i am for sure pregnant. So now i'm sitting here thinking how am I going to pay for this? I gave my 2 weeks notice, and my last day is next friday. Jake has no benefits and will be laid off soon. I decided I am going to apply for the baby your baby program. I really don't want to stress myself out. I "think" I am about 6 weeks pregnant. I have little symptoms, just being extra tired, and a little queasy here and there. Also minor cramping. But nothing too severe....anyways This wasn't what me and Jake planned but we'll have to make the best of it. Our wedding is in less than 3 weeks....Ahh!

Never take life for granted....

2008-09-17T13:11:00.000-07:00

A very good friend of Jakes family passed away monday night...he was the person who helped us get home from Georgia since he worked for Delta...if it wasn't for him we would have been there forever! He was a very nice man, we only met him once and sadly it was our first and last time. He was here on a hunting trip that he goes on every year with Jakes uncle, and he was having a hard time, jakes aunt asked him to come home with her because she could tell he was struggling to keep up. They were walking their horses to give them a break and he was having a hard time breathing. Jakes uncle helped him up onto his horse and a few moments later he had a heart attack..they tried everything but he did not make it. Jakes aunt was SO crushed, I saw her yesterday and she just kept saying " I told him to come home with me " He leaves behind a wife and three daughters who wouldn't believe Michelle when she told them he had passed...How sad would it be??? I can't help but think of all of the people in my life who I cherish so much but never tell them that...Like they say tomorrow is never promised today. I told Jake if he "leaves" this earth before me my heart will stop beating literally. I also think of my parents i don't tell them enough that i love them and appreciate them for everything. Sometimes it takes a tragic event to open your eyes and be grateful for the people you have in your life...

Bad Mother

2008-09-10T11:26:00.000-07:00

I am a bad mother to my puppy Kingston...I had to give him to my brother last weekend because i moved in with jake a little earlier than I planned. I felt really guilty for just pawning him off. He's such a cute dog but he was not able to come to Jakes with me because his parents already have three dogs already. I can tell he is going to be a lot of work for my brother he is very hyper and crazy...and my brother has two daughters and i know King scratches sometimes, and probably cries at night when they put him in his kennel. He hates that thing...i feel really bad though for having to send him off. I hope my brother can put up with him or better yet train him. He's a cutie....so on another topic I CANNOT STAND MY BOSS...he is driving me and everyone else nuts! He is so strange and at times say very innapropriate things and i don't know how much longer i can take it. I thought ok I will just stay here even after the wedding, but now i am looking for jobs. Oh my...its funny because i used to really like him as a boss, but i don't like the way he treats the women in this department, like they are his servants! It's like get your own fax, or lunch, or newspaper! you are not even close to being high up there...ugh i'm going crazy!!!!

Hair, Hair everywhere!!!

2008-09-08T11:18:00.000-07:00

So I am getting hair extensions this weekend whoo hoo! you know i am never satisfied I either want a hair cut or extensions, or i wanna dye my hair or its too light or too dark....one day i will just accept the way I look and stop with all this nonsense. But for now I am getting them. Well mostly for my wedding, and my bridal pictures. I'm really excited. Long hair again yay!! The picture I posted is what my hair looks like now, and i will post a picture of what it looks like after next week! Then by the time i take them out my hair will have grown more, and I can just leave it the way it is. I am growing my hair and never cutting it again!!! well at least for another 5 years. I think when I have kids i will cut it short just because its easier. But that shouldn't be for a long time! Wedding plans are coming along, there's been a few kinks here and there but nothing i didn't get over. Today I am meeting with Lesley to talk about the possiblity of her doing my flowers, I hope everything works out. I have 5 more weeks to get this show on the road and its coming so fast! I am so excited, nervous, and a little scared....its going to be official no little breakups when we get in fights. Its going to take a lot of work, and i am going to have to grow up a little more. But its a change i am willing to make. Well maybe one day i can post something that doesn't mention the wedding or getting married LOL

I'm retarded

2008-08-21T15:01:00.000-07:00

Oh my hell, I just realized that i put pretty much the same picture of me and Jake twice what an idiot LOL

Back to being bitter

2008-08-21T14:49:00.000-07:00

So, I should be filled with joy and excitment with this wedding stuff and all...but I'm not. I have been extra frustrated lately by the way things are going at work. I know certain people have personal issues against me...wait i mean a certain person. Anyways..as I was moved to the position of "Compliance Associate" my so-called position seems to decrease daily. Soon I will be Casey the Janitor. LOL anyways, its just very hard for me here...I cannot tell if I am mad or sad or both. I really want to quit so that I can have a good amount of time off for my wedding. I don't care if that's selfish, because you only get married once, and I don't want to look back and be like oh i missed this or that because I had to work that day. On the other hand i am so not a good finacial situation right now. My car payment was lowered to $300 thank god, but still everytime I put money in my savings it comes right back out because I need it. and i hate being here at work so I hardly clear 80 hours anymore, which is going to change because I need the money so bad. Anyways...I know I was going to try not to be so bitter on my blogs or at all really. But its hard BLAH

~Wedding Bells~

2008-08-13T14:58:00.000-07:00

Wow haven't been on to blog in a while. I finally remembered, and since I am sitting here with nothing to do I thought what the hell. So Just an update on the wedding plans. I found a dress! I am going to get it fitted today, so they can make all the alterations, since I have the wierdest body and nothing fits the way its supposed to on me. Anyways I'm really excited. I also got my engagement pics back yesterday. They looke pretty good, I already know which ones I want to put on the invitations, but Jake hasn't seen them yet, so yeah. I found bridesmaids dresses for my girls, and flower girl dresses for the little girls. I have 10 weeks left to put this thing together!

What a rollercoaster ride. There's already been people who's feelings have been hurt because things haven't gone THEIR way, but I learned to just no give a F*** because its mine and Jake's day, so if you don't like it suck it. haha i'm so lady like huh? Anyways, that's pretty much the only thing that's been on my mind is wedding plans. I want the invitations to be done and over with already...I found a Utah based company that you do everything online and they are shipped to you within a week so that's the direction I am headed in. I don't think I will send them out until the 6th of Septemeber. That should be enough time. My maid of honor, will be here on the 15th of Septemeber and I'm so excited. One of my bridesmaids will be here a few days after that....wow its coming so fast! We are honeymooning in Vegas, and already i've had a few scoffs, and rolled eyes...I don't care, we are staying in a 5 star suite off the strip so those people can suck it too. We could have gone anywhere, but we don't want to spend tons of money on air fares so we settled for Vegas and I couldn't be happier, oh and we are using Jake's parents time share for that week so that's their present to us. As for losing weight for the wedding...yeah I suck. I'm not motivated at all...WTH is wrong with me! I complain that I am "fat" yet I do nothing to change it. anyways, that's that. Until next time... :)

Nervousness...

2008-07-01T13:18:00.000-07:00

So big news....drum roll.....It's official, I'm engaged! Jake proposed on Saturday, after I picked out my ring (which I love) I am so excited!!! we seem to have everything planned the way we want. I am nervous because we are leaving to Kansas in two days, and we are using buddy passes...right now the connecting flights from Atlanta are all booked, I do not want to be stuck in Atlanta at the airport, I mean i'd love to see Atlanta, I just don't want to be stuck in the airport waiting for a flight that both of us can get on. Oh well I guess I shouldn't worry so much. It's hailing right now and its so loud against the metal roof of this building!! Anyways back to the engagement, I am bummed only for one reason, Jake's parents (well mom) was more excited than both my parents put together...I understand that they think I am young and dumb, but I'd expect them to support my decision more. I know they accept it but they just aren't very enthusiastic about it, and I need that from them. It doesn't surprise me they have always been like that...my brother and my dad just think everything I do is stupid, and my mom has her own shit to deal with. Oh well what can you do? My dad is still going to pay for the wedding but he is already complaining about it and he hasn't even paid for anything! I told him the day he held me in his arms for the first time he knew one day he'd have to pay for my wedding so no excuses!! LOL Well i guess i'm done...I will attach a pic of me and Jake for fun...

Kansas Ya'll

2008-06-27T08:20:00.000-07:00

Well its friday (whoo hoo) I'm excited for the weekend, why? I don't know LOL. So me and Jake are going to Kansas next thursday, I am super excited because 1: I need a break from work, and 2: I haven't been anywhere east of Utah ever! (besides Texas but I was born there and haven't been back since.) Anyways, I am a bit nervous though because this is the first time I will meet most of Jake's extended family on his dad's side. Oh duh! i didn't even write why we are going lol his cousin Tyler is getting married, I met him and his mom and dad, and fiance once last December. They were all pretty nice. His Fiance Rebecca, is a sweetheart. It will be fun to go to a wedding, as I will be planning my own soon....speaking of that, me and Jake went to look at rings this past weekend, and not too much luck, we found one at Costco that was really pretty, except the center stone was a pink sapphire. I really wouldn't mind having that as a wedding ring, as long as i had a plain diamond band to go with it hehe...but Jake said he thinks I should get a diamond so I didn't argue lol. We are going to look again this weekend. It so hard, you pay so much for such a little thing...diamonds are expensive! but oh well it will all work out. Well I am glad this blog was a happy one :) and had nothing to do with WORK...

Rabbit Food

2008-06-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

Well I have already cheated on my diet but it wasn't a bad cheat...today Is ALL FRUIT DAY and I am allowed one sandwhich for the day...well I already had wheat toast for breakfast so...IDK I don't think I want to do this diet anymore. Well I want to use what i have learned from it like stop eating just right before you are full, and drink LOTS of water. Yesterday I had no energy to do my kickboxing video, i was kind of pissed and dissapointed in myself....its because I had been eating rabbit food all day! So I will still eat all the groceries I bought (Dam it) and try my best to make good eating decisions, and get more active.

Skinny Jeans, Skinny me

2008-06-16T11:13:00.000-07:00

Day 1 on diet....I started a new diet, called Weight loss for idiots. You get an 11 day menu ( you pick what foods you like ) and then you get 3 "cheat days" to eat whatever. So far so good. I keep thinking i'm hungry but i'm really not. I really don't need all the food I shove into my mouth. anyways, I will also continue my cardio kickboxing which is a lot of fun and burns TONS of calories....My goal is to be able to slip into jean effortlessly...and just be all around in good shape and a little thinner.Well not much time to write gotta get back to work....will update tomorrow.

Take it all back!!!

2008-06-12T14:14:00.000-07:00

What I said earlier about feeling guilty...i take it back!! i am right for being pissed at her and i am GLAD she quit. she couldn't handle all her shit talking catching up to her and that's %100 her fault! anyways, i really need to write a happy blog....but not today....

Feeling Guilty....

2008-06-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

So I am back at work today, and I have come to find out that Chelsey has quit....believe me this is good news, but i can't help but feel guilty...I know she was a shit talker, and i was very mean to her. Although I still dislike her a whole lot, I shouldn't have been so catty, that shows how insecure i am. That's not the first (or last time) I was called a bitch. So why did I care so much? I should have just brushed it off and kept walking. instead I wrote mean things to her. I am still trying to grow up and learn from my mistakes. I need to be the bigger person in situations like these. I am glad she is gone, but i shouldn't have played a part in that decision...Anyways this means i have to work 3 times harder now that she's gone (great) so I'd better get back to work.....

2008-06-09T11:33:00.000-07:00

wow....so my puppy Kingston is the most darling thing! but he can also be a little shit...so yesterday me and Jake were having our "alone time" and we were trying out a new little toy. Well when we were done Jake just throws the toy on the ground and lets King out of his kennel.....about 5 mins later i'm sittin on the couch and i hear Jake laugh as he tells me to call Kingston over to me....he comes over and his mouth is vibrating. He has the toy that we just used "down there" in his mouth!!! LOL i was more grossed out at first but later laughed it off...Well we had a lot of fun this weekend, (me and Jake) oh and i almost forgot! me and Summer got tattoos! mine was my first and Summer's was her second....she got stars on her foot in different colors with each color representing someone in her life which i thougt was cute. I got a Japanese symbol meaning "Strength" and yes it hurt but its only temporary and so worth it. It was fun to go together. I'm sure i'll go back to get another one, one day. Well back to work AKA looking at wedding stuff online haha!!!

This Week...

2008-05-21T14:48:00.000-07:00

Well all I have to say is today is a wierd day..i've been so on edge lately, everything pisses me off. My emotions are going crazy, i get mad, sad, jealous, and everything else so easy. I don't know what my deal is...I can't stand my job or some of the people i have to work with. Sometimes I feel a little left out, like the only people I really relate to I don't even work on the same floor with...but what can you do, its hard not to let things at work effect you when you are here %80 of the day...Other than that, at home things are ok. Me and Jake are still discussing marriage, and I am STILL waiting for a proposal lol. We really have our hearts set on Samoa...I just want to get away and live a simple life. I can do without the car payments, bills, and having to worry if we'll qualify for a $250,000.00 house!!! i can't believe the economy these days...I am excited to move on and start an adventure with the person i know and love the most. My puppy Kingston is doing good, he is very good, but he is not housetrained and he rarely listens to me which is VERY hard. I feel bad when i just leave him home with my dad, and i wonder if i was really ready for a dog? I think i got a little ahead of myself. Either way I still love my dog, and do not plan on getting rid of him. Well I think i am done venting for the day!!! this really helps...I like it.